My heart was pounding so quickly as if I had just ran a race. I paced up and down my room, said a short prayer, took a deep breath, then walked into my brother’s room. And that was my first time sharing the gospel with him.
It must have been very awkward from his point of view, why would I talk to him about Christianity? But it wasn’t odd to me at all; in fact, I should’ve done this earlier. When I leave the face of this earth, I really hope to see my family in heaven too.
While talking to my brother, I kept praying for wisdom and for God to open his mind. We talked for 2 hours, and he told me his personal views on religions in general. Actually I wouldn’t say those were his individual opinions, but more suitably the world’s view. Initially I was a bit nervous, but very quickly I found myself quite comfortable. I’m very thankful because I had such confidence that no matter what weird philosophical or science questions he threw at me, I knew for sure I could answer him, or perhaps provide him an alternative perspective, because God is with me and His wisdom supersedes all.
Another thing that I’m greatly thankful for is God’s grace in allowing me to believe in Him. And as such it is in believing that I know, NOT the other way round. I first believed that God is almighty, loving, compassionate, faithful and upright before I knew it. This thought specifically pertained to me after our conversation ended. Looking back in my life, I haven’t done anything to earn this salvation, actually it showed that I don’t deserve it; neither in my future will I be able to do so. But God initiatively gave me this chance. I didn’t seek out in search for Him, He effectually called me first. That is one major difference between Christianity and the world’s beliefs. I pray that God will continue to mould me into becoming the person He desires and use me as a tool to spread His word.
To ph n nf if you’re reading this, prepare yourselves as I might just tell you more during our trip in June :) haha.
不是你们拣选了我，是我拣选了你们，并且分派你们去结果子，叫你们的果子常存。使你们奉我的名，无论向父求什么，他就赐给你们。约15:16
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