Tomorrow will officially be my last day of work at the polyclinic :) Hopefully nothing unexpected pops up last minute which means that I won’t be free yet. Anyway I was thrilled when my boss told me this piece of good news on tue :) After that, every step I took felt like there was a bounce to it, haha. Even listening to an ‘emo’ song on my mp3 sounds joyful to me :)
I’m thankful that I had a chance to work at two clinics; we recently shifted to another site because the previous one I was at is having renovation. I got to see the two different working styles despite both of them being in the same healthcare industry. I shan’t elaborate further in case I get sued by them :(
Nonetheless there is a bit of sadness when I think about leaving the clinic, or more appropriately, my colleagues. They’re not really my colleagues actually, I see them as my care givers. Most of them are made up of middle age mothers, and sometimes I feel like their child. When we have lunch together, some will offer their food and fruits, we read the papers and discuss about some headlines. I remember once I was mistakenly scolded by a nurse and one of them responded just as fiercely to her “don’t scold my ah boy ok?” haha. They would also tell me about their children and me about my parents. It’s also funny to listen to their complains, for instance one was about what a patient said to her “你们做事那么慢！我有心障病leh！如果我死了怎么办？我做了鬼一定来找你！”
I was quite touched at the clinic today. Although we were spread around the new clinic unlike previously when we could at least see more of each other, news got around that tomorrow will be my last day of work. So during lunch time, some of them came and we basically talked :) They were surprised by my premature departure because my contract isn’t supposed to end till end of July. So they thought we still had chances to talk, but sadly we hadn’t since the move two weeks ago. And it happened that this is the first time an auntie wanted my number, haha. We all laughed when one of them asked. None of them has email or facebook, so I guess this was the only way left for contact. But as promised, I will visit them when from time to time.
Another thing that I regret is that I only managed to talk to 2 aunties and a few temp staff like me about Christianity. And it wasn’t in depth as well :( That is why after this I feel that wearing a cross is good because firstly it’s easier to start the conversation and secondly, more people might see it and start asking. This was how I began talking to a fellow Christian at the new clinic :) I saw this 60 year old lady wearing a cross necklace and began talking to her about her faith one day. Talking to old people is a rewarding experience because they have something we don’t have; experience.
The first question she asked was which denomination I belonged to and was much relieved that the answer was not charismatic. I didn’t realise that she was tearing as she spoke until I noticed that the skin beneath her eyes were wet and her eyes were red. She recounted to me of how she and a few of her brothers and sisters in Christ started building a church in Geylang, and how they experienced the boundless blessings from God despite the enormity of the various constraints they encountered. She also told me about how God has blessed her in her work, marriage and children. While I was listening to her, I was very touched that even in old age, her love and reverence for God still remains ever so sturdy. In fact I believe that the faith and awe she has for God has only grown with time.
I carried out a little experiment on my way home after work one day :) The aim was to see if the average Singaporean would be cynical towards a person wearing a facial mask. I was having a bad cough, so I put on a new mask and made my way to the bus stop. Immediately I got stares from people walking past me. Later I approached a group of three housewives and asked them for directions, and while clearing my throat to speak, quite exaggeratedly, one of them gave a disgusted look :( haha. Then when I was at the bus stop, a woman standing in front of me immediately took two steps backwards upon turning around and seeing me. I was smiling under my mask, haha.
I really must discipline myself during this two month break, hopefully I will make the best out of it. I was thinking at work today, 既然神给我时间，我就应该好好地掌管。既然不是属于自己的，而是神给的，就应该做他的事。So I must dedicate more time to reading the bible while doing other things.
To enci:
1. Only God is the rightful judge, so how should we respond to others’ judgments having this in mind?
2. Even an apostle or a pastor doesn’t mean that he is immune to sin, what more a pastor’s child?
3. Have you never judged anyone? Have we? Aren’t you doing precisely that right now?
4. Since we have all sinned and fall short of the glory of God, how different are we from our ‘enemy’?
5. By what measure you use on others, the same one will be measured on you by God. Condemning equates to failure to exercise forgiveness. Only a gentle and humble correction that FIRST recognises one's own flaw, which is often greater, is helpful.
6. Isn’t it through these that we truly learn how to love?
Hope you’re not offended in any way, but I think I’m doing you more harm than good if I said what you’d prefer to hear. Take it as not me talking to you, but what the bible teaches. I’m also still learning, so 一起加油吧！
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